All’s Right With The World

The following is the 26th chapter in, “AWARENESS: A de Mellow Spirituality Conference in His Own Words” by Fr. Anthony de Mello, S.J. edited by J. Francis Stroud, S.J., Copyright © 1990 by the DeMello Stroud Spirituality Center.

“When you awaken, when you understand, when you see, the world becomes right. We’re always bothered by the problem of evil. There’s a powerful story about a little boy walking along the bank of a river. He sees a crocodile who is trapped in a net. The crocodile says, ‘Would you have pity on me and release me? I may look ugly, but it isn’t my fault, you know. I was made this way. But whatever my external appearance, I have a mother’s heart. I came this morning in search of food for my young ones and got caught in this trap!’ So the boy says, ‘Ah, if I were to help you out of that trap, you’d grab me and kill me.’ The crocodile asks, ‘Do you think I would do that to my benefactor and liberator?’ So the boy is persuaded to take the net off and the crocodile grabs him. As he is being forced between the jaws of the crocodile, he says, ‘So this is what I get for my good actions.’ And the crocodile says, ‘Well, don’t take it personally, son, this is the way the world is, this is the law of life.’ The boy disputes this, so the crocodile says, ‘Do you want to ask someone if it isn’t so?’ The boys sees a bird sitting on a branch and says, ‘Bird, is what the crocodile says right?’ The bird says, ‘The crocodile is right. Look at me. I was coming home one day with food for my fledglings. Imagine my horror to see a snake crawling up the tree, making straight for my nest. I was totally helpless. It kept devouring my young ones, one after the other. I kept screaming and shouting, but it was useless. The crocodile is right, this is the law of life, this is the way the world is.’ ‘See,’ says the crocodile. But the boy says, ‘Let me ask someone else.’ So the crocodile says, ‘Well, all right, go ahead.’ There was an old donkey passing by on the bank of the river. ‘Donkey,’ says the boy, ‘This is what the crocodile says. Is the crocodile right?’ The donkey says, ‘The crocodile is quite right. Look at me. I’ve worked and slaved for my master all my life and he barely gave me enough to eat. Now that I’m old and useless, he has turned me loose, and here I am wandering in the jungle, waiting for some wild beast to pounce on me and put an end to my life. The crocodile is right, this is the law of life, this is the way the world is.’ ‘See,’ says the crocodile. ‘Let’s go!’ The boy says, ‘Give me one more chance, one last chance. Let me ask one other being. Remember how good I was to you?’ So the crocodile says, ‘All right, your last chance.’ The boy sees a rabbit passing by, and he says, ‘Rabbit, is the crocodile right?” The rabbit sits on his haunches and says to the crocodile, ‘Did you say that to that boy? The crocodile says, Yes, I did.’ ‘Wait a minute,’ says the rabbit. ‘We’ve got to discuss this.’ ‘Yes,’ says the crocodile. But the rabbit says, ‘How can we discuss it when you’ve got that boy in your mouth? Release him; he’s got to take part in the discussion, too.’ The crocodile says, ‘You’re a clever one, you are. The moment I release him, he’ll run away.’ The rabbit says, ‘I thought you had more sense than that. If he attempted to run away, one slash of your tail would kill him.’ ‘Fair enough,’ says the crocodile, and he released the boy. The moment the boy is released, the rabbit says, ‘Run!’ And the boy runs and escapes. Then the rabbit says to the boy, ‘Don’t you enjoy crocodile flesh? Wouldn’t the people in your village like a good meal? You didn’t really release that crocodile; most of his body is still caught in that net. Why don’t you go to the village and bring everybody and have a banquet.’ That’s exactly what the boy does. He goes to the village and calls all the menfolk. They come with their axes and staves and spears and kill the crocodile. The boy’s dog comes, too, and when the dog sees the rabbit, he gives chase, catches hold of the rabbit, and throttles him. The boy comes on the scene too late, and as he watches the rabbit die, he says, ‘The crocodile was right, this is the way the world is, this is the law of life.’

“There is no explanation you can give that would explain away all the sufferings and evil and torture and destruction and hunger in the world! You’ll never explain it. You can try gamely with your formulas, religious and otherwise, but you’ll never explain it. Because life is a mystery, which means your thinking mind cannot make sense out of it. For that you’ve got to wake up and then you’ll suddenly realize that reality is not problematic, you are the problem.”

Fear – The Root of Violence

The following is the 20th chapter in, “AWARENESS: A de Mellow Spirituality Conference in His Own Words” by Fr. Anthony de Mello, S.J. edited by J. Francis Stroud, S.J., Copyright © 1990 by the DeMello Stroud Spirituality Center.

“Some say that there are only two things in the world: God and fear; love and fear are the only two things. There’s only one evil in the world, fear. There’s only one good in the world, love. It’s sometimes called by other names. It’s sometimes called happiness or freedom or peace or joy or God or whatever. But the label doesn’t really matter. And there’s not a single evil in the world that you cannot trace to fear. Not one.

“Ignorance and fear, ignorance caused by fear, that’s where all the evil comes from, that’s where your violence comes from. The person who is truly nonviolent, who is incapable of violence, is the person who is fearless. It’s only when you’re afraid that you become angry. Think of the last time you were angry. Go ahead. Think of the last time you were angry and search for the fear behind it. What were you afraid of losing? What were you afraid would be taken from you? That’s where the anger comes from. Think of an angry person, maybe someone you’re afraid of. Can you see how frightened he or she is? He’s really frightened, he really is. She’s really frightened or she wouldn’t be angry. Ultimately, there are only two things, love and fear.

“In this retreat I’d rather leave it like this, unstructured and moving from one thing to another and returning to themes again and again, because that’s the way to really grasp what I’m saying. If it doesn’t hit you the first time, it might the second time, and what doesn’t hit one person might hit another. I’ve got different themes, but they are all about the same thing. Call it awareness, call it love, call it spirituality or freedom or awakening or whatever. It really is the same thing.”

All’s Right With The World

The following is the 26th chapter in, “AWARENESS: A de Mellow Spirituality Conference in His Own Words” by Fr. Anthony de Mello, S.J. edited by J. Francis Stroud, S.J., Copyright © 1990 by the DeMello Stroud Spirituality Center.

“When you awaken, when you understand, when you see, the world becomes right. We’re always bothered by the problem of evil. There’s a powerful story about a little boy walking along the bank of a river. He sees a crocodile who is trapped in a net. The crocodile says, ‘Would you have pity on me and release me? I may look ugly, but it isn’t my fault, you know. I was made this way. But whatever my external appearance, I have a mother’s heart. I came this morning in search of food for my young ones and got caught in this trap!’ So the boy says, ‘Ah, if I were to help you out of that trap, you’d grab me and kill me.’ The crocodile asks, ‘Do you think I would do that to my benefactor and liberator?’ So the boy is persuaded to take the net off and the crocodile grabs him. As he is being forced between the jaws of the crocodile, he says, ‘So this is what I get for my good actions.’ And the crocodile says, ‘Well, don’t take it personally, son, this is the way the world is, this is the law of life.’ The boy disputes this, so the crocodile says, ‘Do you want to ask someone if it isn’t so?’ The boys sees a bird sitting on a branch and says, ‘Bird, is what the crocodile says right?’ The bird says, ‘The crocodile is right. Look at me. I was coming home one day with food for my fledglings. Imagine my horror to see a snake crawling up the tree, making straight for my nest. I was totally helpless. It kept devouring my young ones, one after the other. I kept screaming and shouting, but it was useless. The crocodile is right, this is the law of life, this is the way the world is.’ ‘See,’ says the crocodile. But the boy says, ‘Let me ask someone else.’ So the crocodile says, ‘Well, all right, go ahead.’ There was an old donkey passing by on the bank of the river. ‘Donkey,’ says the boy, ‘This is what the crocodile says. Is the crocodile right?’ The donkey says, ‘The crocodile is quite right. Look at me. I’ve worked and slaved for my master all my life and he barely gave me enough to eat. Now that I’m old and useless, he has turned me loose, and here I am wandering in the jungle, waiting for some wild beast to pounce on me and put an end to my life. The crocodile is right, this is the law of life, this is the way the world is.’ ‘See,’ says the crocodile. ‘Let’s go!’ The boy says, ‘Give me one more chance, one last chance. Let me ask one other being. Remember how good I was to you?’ So the crocodile says, ‘All right, your last chance.’ The boy sees a rabbit passing by, and he says, ‘Rabbit, is the crocodile right?” The rabbit sits on his haunches and says to the crocodile, ‘Did you say that to that boy? The crocodile says, Yes, I did.’ ‘Wait a minute,’ says the rabbit. ‘We’ve got to discuss this.’ ‘Yes,’ says the crocodile. But the rabbit says, ‘How can we discuss it when you’ve got that boy in your mouth? Release him; he’s got to take part in the discussion, too.’ The crocodile says, ‘You’re a clever one, you are. The moment I release him, he’ll run away.’ The rabbit says, ‘I thought you had more sense than that. If he attempted to run away, one slash of your tail would kill him.’ ‘Fair enough,’ says the crocodile, and he released the boy. The moment the boy is released, the rabbit says, ‘Run!’ And the boy runs and escapes. Then the rabbit says to the boy, ‘Don’t you enjoy crocodile flesh? Wouldn’t the people in your village like a good meal? You didn’t really release that crocodile; most of his body is still caught in that net. Why don’t you go to the village and bring everybody and have a banquet.’ That’s exactly what the boy does. He goes to the village and calls all the menfolk. They come with their axes and staves and spears and kill the crocodile. The boy’s dog comes, too, and when the dog sees the rabbit, he gives chase, catches hold of the rabbit, and throttles him. The boy comes on the scene too late, and as he watches the rabbit die, he says, ‘The crocodile was right, this is the way the world is, this is the law of life.’

“There is no explanation you can give that would explain away all the sufferings and evil and torture and destruction and hunger in the world! You’ll never explain it. You can try gamely with your formulas, religious and otherwise, but you’ll never explain it. Because life is a mystery, which means your thinking mind cannot make sense out of it. For that you’ve got to wake up and then you’ll suddenly realize that reality is not problematic, you are the problem.”

Fear – The Root of Violence

The following is the 20th chapter in, “AWARENESS: A de Mellow Spirituality Conference in His Own Words” by Fr. Anthony de Mello, S.J. edited by J. Francis Stroud, S.J., Copyright © 1990 by the DeMello Stroud Spirituality Center.

“Some say that there are only two things in the world: God and fear; love and fear are the only two things. There’s only one evil in the world, fear. There’s only one good in the world, love. It’s sometimes called by other names. It’s sometimes called happiness or freedom or peace or joy or God or whatever. But the label doesn’t really matter. And there’s not a single evil in the world that you cannot trace to fear. Not one.

“Ignorance and fear, ignorance caused by fear, that’s where all the evil comes from, that’s where your violence comes from. The person who is truly nonviolent, who is incapable of violence, is the person who is fearless. It’s only when you’re afraid that you become angry. Think of the last time you were angry. Go ahead. Think of the last time you were angry and search for the fear behind it. What were you afraid of losing? What were you afraid would be taken from you? That’s where the anger comes from. Think of an angry person, maybe someone you’re afraid of. Can you see how frightened he or she is? He’s really frightened, he really is. She’s really frightened or she wouldn’t be angry. Ultimately, there are only two things, love and fear.

“In this retreat I’d rather leave it like this, unstructured and moving from one thing to another and returning to themes again and again, because that’s the way to really grasp what I’m saying. If it doesn’t hit you the first time, it might the second time, and what doesn’t hit one person might hit another. I’ve got different themes, but they are all about the same thing. Call it awareness, call it love, call it spirituality or freedom or awakening or whatever. It really is the same thing.”

Hidden Agendas

The following is the 44th chapter in, “AWARENESS: A de Mellow Spirituality Conference in His Own Words” by Fr. Anthony de Mello, S.J. edited by J. Francis Stroud, S.J., Copyright © 1990 by the DeMello Stroud Spirituality Center.

“There is a difference between knowledge and awareness, between information and awareness. I just said to you that one cannot do evil in awareness. But one can do evil in knowledge or information, when you know something is bad. ‘Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do.’ I would translate that as ‘They’re not aware of what they are doing.’ Paul says he is the greatest of sinners because he persecuted the Church of Christ. But, he adds, I did it unawares. Or if they had been aware that they were crucifying the Lord of Glory, they would never have done so. Or: ‘The time will come when they will persecute you and they think they are doing a service to God.’ They aren’t aware. They’re caught up in information and knowledge. Thomas Aquinas puts it nicely when he says, ‘Every time someone sins, they’re sinning under the guise of good.’ They’re blinding themselves; they’re seeing something as good even though they know it is bad; they’re rationalizing because they’re seeking something under the pretext of good.

“Someone gave me two situations in which she found it difficult to be aware. She was in a service industry where many people were lined up, many phones were ringing, and she was alone and there were distractions coming from a lot of uptight, angry people. She found it extremely difficult to maintain serenity and calm. The other situation was when she was driving in traffic, with horns blowing and people shouting four-letter words. She asked me whether eventually that nervousness would dissipate and she could remain at peace.

“Did you pick up the attachment there? Peace. Her attachment to peace and calm. She was saying, ‘Unless I’m peaceful, I won’t be happy.’ Did it ever occur to you that you could be happy in tension? Before enlightenment, I used to be depressed; after enlightenment, I continue to be depressed. You don’t make a goal out of relaxation and sensitivity. Have you ever heard of people who get tense trying to relax? If one is tense, one simply observes one’s tension. You will never understand yourself if you seek to change yourself. The harder you try to change yourself, the worse it gets. You are called upon to be aware. Get the feel of that jangling telephone; get the feel of jarred nerves; get the sensation of the steering wheel in the car. In other words, come to reality, and let tension or the calmness take care of itself. As a matter of fact, you will have to let them take care of themselves because you’ll be too preoccupied with getting in touch with reality. Step by step, let whatever happens happen. Real change will come when it is brought about, not by your ego, but by reality. Awareness releases reality to change you.

“In awareness you change, but you’ve got to experience it. At this point you’re just taking my word for it. Perhaps also you’ve got a plan to become aware. Your ego, in its own cunning way, is trying to push you into awareness. Watch it! You’ll meet with resistance; there will be trouble. When someone is anxious about being aware all the time, you can spot the mild anxiety. They want to be awake, to find out if they’re really awake or not. That’s part of asceticism, not awareness. It sounds strange in a culture where we’ve been trained to achieve goals, to get somewhere, but in fact there’s nowhere to go because you’re there already. The Japanese have a nice way of putting it: ‘The day you cease to travel, you will have arrived.’ Your attitude should be: ‘I want to be aware, I want to be in touch with whatever is and let whatever happens happen; if I’m awake, fine, and if I’m asleep, fine.’ The moment you make a goal out of it and attempt to get it, you’re seeking ego glorification, ego promotion. You want the good feeling that you’ve made it. When you do ‘make it,’ you won’t know. Your left hand won’t know what your right hand is doing. ‘Lord, when did we do this? We had no awareness.’ Charity is never so lovely as when one has lost consciousness that one is practicing charity. ‘You mean I helped you? I was enjoying myself. I was just doing my dance. It helped you, that’s wonderful. Congratulations to you. No credit to me.’

“When you attain, when you are aware, increasingly you will not be bothered about labels like ‘awake’ or ‘asleep.’ One of my difficulties here is to arouse your curiosity but not your spiritual greed. Let’s come awake, it’s going to be wonderful. After a while, it doesn’t matter; one is aware, because one lives. The unaware life is not worth living. And you will leave pain to take care of itself.”

All’s Right With The World

The following is the 27th chapter in AWARENESS: A de Mellow Spirituality Conference in His Own Words by Fr. Anthony de Mello, S.J. edited by J. Francis Stroud, S.J., Copyright © 1990 by the DeMello Stroud Spirituality Center.

“When you awaken, when you understand, when you see, the world becomes right. We’re always bothered by the problem of evil. There’s a powerful story about a little boy walking along the bank of a river. He sees a crocodile who is trapped in a net. The crocodile says, ‘Would you have pity on me and release me? I may look ugly, but it isn’t my fault, you know. I was made this way. But whatever my external appearance, I have a mother’s heart. I came this morning in search of food for my young ones and got caught in this trap!’ So the boy says, ‘Ah, if I were to help you out of that trap, you’d grab me and kill me.’ The crocodile asks, ‘Do you think I would do that to my benefactor and liberator?’ So the boy is persuaded to take the net off and the crocodile grabs him. As he is being forced between the jaws of the crocodile, he says, ‘So this is what I get for my good actions.’ And the crocodile says, ‘Well, don’t take it personally, son, this is the way the world is, this is the law of life.’ The boy disputes this, so the crocodile says, ‘Do you want to ask someone if it isn’t so?’ The boys sees a bird sitting on a branch and says, ‘Bird, is what the crocodile says right?’ The bird says, ‘The crocodile is right. Look at me. I was coming home one day with food for my fledglings. Imagine my horror to see a snake crawling up the tree, making straight for my nest. I was totally helpless. It kept devouring my young ones, one after the other. I kept screaming and shouting, but it was useless. The crocodile is right, this is the law of life, this is the way the world is.’ ‘See,’ says the crocodile. But the boy says, ‘Let me ask someone else.’ So the crocodile says, ‘Well, all right, go ahead.’ There was an old donkey passing by on the bank of the river. ‘Donkey,’ says the boy, ‘this is what the crocodile says. Is the crocodile right?’ The donkey says, ‘The crocodile is quite right. Look at me. I’ve worked and slaved for my master all my life and he barely gave me enough to eat. Now that I’m old and useless, he has turned me loose, and here I am wandering in the jungle, waiting for some wild beast to pounce on me and put an end to my life. The crocodile is right, this is the law of life, this is the way the world is.’ ‘See,’ says the crocodile. ‘Let’s go!’ The boy says, ‘Give me one more chance, one last chance. Let me ask one other being. Remember how good I was to you?’ So the crocodile says, ‘All right, your last chance.’ The boy sees a rabbit passing by, and he says, ‘Rabbit, is the crocodile right?’ The rabbit sits on his haunches and says to the crocodile, ‘Did you say that to that boy? The crocodile says, Yes, I did.’ ‘Wait a minute,’ says the rabbit. ‘We’ve got to discuss this.’ ‘Yes,’ says the crocodile. But the rabbit says, ‘How can we discuss it when you’ve got that boy in your mouth? Release him; he’s got to take part in the discussion, too.’ The crocodile says, ‘You’re a clever one, you are. The moment I release him, he’ll run away.’ The rabbit says, ‘I thought you had more sense than that. If he attempted to run away, one slash of your tail would kill him.’ ‘Fair enough,’ says the crocodile, and he released the boy. The moment the boy is released, the rabbit says, ‘Run!’ And the boy runs and escapes. Then the rabbit says to the boy, ‘Don’t you enjoy crocodile flesh? Wouldn’t the people in your village like a good meal? You didn’t really release that crocodile; most of his body is still caught in that net. Why don’t you go to the village and bring everybody and have a banquet.’ That’s exactly what the boy does. He goes to the village and calls all the menfolk. They come with their axes and staves and spears and kill the crocodile. The boy’s dog comes, too, and when the dog sees the rabbit, he gives chase, catches hold of the rabbit, and throttles him. The boy comes on the scene too late, and as he watches the rabbit die, he says, ‘The crocodile was right, this is the way the world is, this is the law of life.’

“There is no explanation you can give that would explain away all the sufferings and evil and torture and destruction and hunger in the world! You’ll never explain it. You can try gamely with your formulas, religious and otherwise, but you’ll never explain it. Because life is a mystery, which means your thinking mind cannot make sense out of it. For that you’ve got to wake up and then you’ll suddenly realize that reality is not problematic, you are the problem.”